Dreading and Hoping All by Nicholas Alahverdian

Dreading and Hoping All

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Chapter One: Hellfire in Florida

Hell is other people
–Jean-Paul Sartre

The first thing I remember is the brightness of the sun. The blazing, white-hot sun, and then being whisked into a luxurious lobby.  It was a welcome departure from the drab, impoverished climate of Omaha, Nebraska where I had spent the previous 24 months.  As I sit and attempt to remember the month that I was sent to this hellhole in Florida, my mind is simply drawn blank.  That’s how overmedicated I was.

Let’s move on.  It was in 2004.  I was 16 years old.  I flew from Nebraska to Sarasota, Florida with my DCYF social worker and we drove up the massive Tampa bridge.  I remember feeling Continue reading Dreading and Hoping All by Nicholas Alahverdian

Official Statement of Nicholas Alahverdian | October 31, 2018

About: Nicholas Alahverdian is a victim of torture perpetrated upon him by group homes and shelters who contracted with the Rhode Island State Government to provide services for children in the care of the Department of Children Youth and Families. Nicholas simultaneously worked for the Rhode Island General Assembly as a legislative aide.

After exposing widespread abuse and neglect within the DCYF night-to-night program, Alahverdian was sent hundreds of miles from home to two facilities in Nebraska and Florida that had records of torture where he was allowed to contact no one. The facilities were closed by their own states following Alahverdian’s discharge when the abuse was discovered. Nicholas later recovered from the abuse, sued his abusers in federal court, was admitted to and studied at Harvard University, and became a vocal critic of DCYF.


October 31, 2018

As a 14-year-old legislative aide, I was sodomized and raped by a member of the Rhode Island House of Representatives. That person now wields formidable power. In light of the recent facts illuminated by the sexual harassment perpetrated by Cale Keable upon Katie Kazarian, I felt prompted to do what I never thought I would: bring the facts of this vicious and embarrassing assault upon me to the public eye. 

I was degraded and humiliated by a person in power — and this culture of corruption in Rhode Island politics needs to stop. Katie Kazarian is leading the charge in exposing the moral attrition at the State House, and for that she deserves the utmost praise. But for myself, I go on and tell my story to those whom will listen. The most deplorable action we can take to address these endemic issues is none at all. I will be releasing details of the rape upon my person after the election. That way, no one can say ‘Nicholas Alahverdian did this for political advantage.’ 

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Video Honoring Rep. Giannini features Nicholas Alahverdian, Buddy Cianci, others


Joanne Giannini was a Democratic member of the Rhode Island House of Representatives in the state’s General Assembly, representing the 7th District (Providence) from 1994 until 2010.   Continue reading Video Honoring Rep. Giannini features Nicholas Alahverdian, Buddy Cianci, others